mds64OP
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NOTICE-I'm aware that this-and my last post before I logged out-have gotten me into trouble, but I thought I'd stand up, one last time-If I get banned-It's for the good of romulation.If not-then prehaps someone up there cared...*points to skyOk, first of all, my post-and a few fellow users, have gone out of hand-prehaps it's my fault-and I'm willing to accept full responsibility for what's recently happened.No one has told me about the "change", so I assume ethier I got warned while I was at costco (as planned) and the thread got killed-or I wasn't the last straw...Simply put-something that I made a home away from home has now died-anjd I'm here to not only mourn the passing...But to stand up and accept my actions as wrong-I tried to help users-not just with technical crap-but with life it's self...Some new users had a tough time-and I'd thought I help-sure we did some bad things (discussed personal life, swore, attacking other users, etc) but I have to say-I didn't see my actions as wrong...because I have no idea of the concept.Ok-one last blast!When I first joined here, like many users, all i wanted was roms-then I saw the community...and I wanted to make a home, slowly but surely, this very site had a seat for me...For a short time though-my life changed-I lost my best friend-and stayed-and tried to pull away-from the site-because as I may have said-I'm a video game addict.Yep-just the other day-$200 spent on games alone-in a single day-before I got my card I would be lucky to spend $100 on games alone (cheap one's, in mass).But also-I'm a depressant-this is NOT a cry for attention, but this is to let you know WHY I'm prone to anger burst.And another thing-some of you may not understand my post-or seem...childish despite the fact I'm 22 years...I went to a special school for all of my life-I'd be lucky to end up in a job that pay's more than $700 a week-coupled with a short attention span (I can't sit in a class room) and my anger (whi9ch made me quit a job and loss a friend) had made things hard...I used the spam thread as a blow off valve for my life-helping other's has always been what keeps me from losing my mind (and a few games in between-all day if I was given the time...or a lack of internet).Did that make sence above-I went thru it a few times-it makes sence to me-I'm flawed-I'm broken-and now i caused a loss to this site.To all the fellow (ex) spammer-I'm sorry if the spam thread was taken away if my actions were the reason.To the mods-I probably the fire starter in this (despite being an ex-honour student at school I was the behind the scene's trouble maker) and thus I ask for judement.To everyone else-I assume I'm to blame-I'm the real troll, the one who killed the spam thread...Sure we have irc-but that's not what kept me here so long-nor the roms-I stopped downloading from here a long time ago, unless we get ps2 or gamecube iso's I doubt I ever would downlaod from here for a long time...What can I say, I'm sorry for what's happened-I'm sorry for the enter button being abused (I can't focus on my typings or read them unless I space it a little) I'm sorry for my arrogance (especially to CJdogger) and certainly sorry for the death of the spam thread...I'm giveing this site a week off-as you noticed I put my msn up-wanna chat-do it there-you won't see me posting here after this-nor the irc.Yep-I made a few excuses for myself-personality and arrogance are to blame-but I thought I'd let you know some of the factor's in my life-despite my full online name being "masterDS64" I'm actually a person full of doubt-yep even when I'm standing over people I can't feel how they might rise up and take it all away...Well that's it-If I'm banned for this statment I guess it's goodbye romulation-I never even got around to ordering a T-shirt or donating to this awsome site...I don't ask forgiveness-I don't ask for my game threads to keep going (they go off the rails far to often) nor sypathy (if my post made you want to give-don't) but I ask...The passing of my farourite thread...farwell spam, I knew you well...And if I'm unlucky-fair-well fellow users-I'm 100% sure this site can survive without me-there are soo many of you who have what it takes-to be mods-to help other's-to just keep this awsome site going...Not sure how long I'll be-but for 1 week-I'll be gone...Goodbye until the hell that is my heart and soul is put out... (and yes I have been to depression based sites-they gave me courage to stand up for life-but what they didn't do-nor therapist-was cure my attitude).Good bye romulation (prehaps :( )