calvin_0 · #50i just read your life story, you mess up your life, but i didnt... my life is already mess up.but ya, you got a harder life because you do drugs, i dont, i may be not capable of getting a scholarship, but i'm not dumb enough to do drugs.and unlike you i'm not proud of my mess up life.
He wasn't saying he was proud....he's saying he had it harder, and grew the fuck out of it.
It's one thing to have a hard life, but to make excuses and not do shit about it is another.
I think msg is more proud that he turned things around, god bless that crazy man XD
My life is messed up, possibly not like yours calvin, and surely not like msg's, and I did makes things worse for myself at times...
But I took steps, reclaimed the life I almost lost (having friends that stick to you and having a job), and being content with life as it comes.
It's why I choose a small portion of life, I'm afraid to fail, but when I am, I'll climb up just enough to stay out of the deep end.
Now, special schooling, I never considered myself "normal" because I was a little far behind, at times I felt like a god compared to my fellow stupids because I was a "low class" of disability.
But being around normal people (doing tafe, courses mixed with other's, etc) I felt weak, after some time and help from said school I had 4 years of fast food as my first job.
(Mind you, the work experience vids kept showing people with disabilities in fast food, I felt ashamed I let my teachers talk me into it...at first)
Things went fine, made $600 a week as a casual who worked 35 hours a week, made great friends who thankfully I still have now, until the psyco path within lashed out (bad anger issues-plus the feelings of love changed me...mentally), needless to say a staff member nearly got hurt (and several bystanders) and to avoid having a black mark on my resume I out right quit, spent just a month in myu bed...stricken with sadness since I lost the one friends who actually got me out doing crazy shit.
Got a new job (closer to home, less stressful, management is quite caring), the few friends I had left (from work and beyond) took me in, gave me new friends who didn't give a damn about my anger issues, and chose just to have a quiet life, to watch over those I care for, and to help other's in need when I can.
Seems like a weak story, but when it happens you feel like crap, heck at one point my old job kept saying "you'll just transfer" but after 2 weeks of that BS, they tell me "new info came up" and again, was shoved into sadness...then i opened my eyes.
Don't know if the new "info" was too timely, all I knew is this...
I was sick of being sad.
(Work suspended me for a month, in that time I was in bed not eating or sleeping, I tried to get help via depression sites, they gave some hope, and after the month during the "trial" I felt happier and did life style changes such as more exercise, but when that bomb hit christ I went down hard, but after the second day in bed I opened my eyes and took action, quit, found a new job, end story)
I'm not sure what happened to you Calvin in your life, but no need to keep living the sad depressing one, stand up and fight-you may not be able to fix the past but you do something...
I live with my parents still until I save enough cash, once I do I'll ethier rent out with some trusted mates or wait until I inherited the house my parents are using now XD
Try finding another job, or save up and move from your area to find a more job filled place, heck I'd welcome you to Australia if you chose to move over seas :)
